Daily Balance: Where Is It?

First of all, I’ve updated the About Marshall page. Still no pictures, but I’ll add some soon.

I’ve just been busy lately. Like I’m never not busy. Like anyone is ever not busy. It’s tough to find a balance in life. There are so many things that pull for our attention. I’m not sure what kind of a thinker I am, but in my mind, everything needs to be organized, categorized. I’ve made a list of seven things that I need to do each day, in order to be successful.:

1. Physical Exercise: most of the time sports
2. Spiritual growth: scriptural study
3. School: Mainly homework. This one will really help with the next one later on.
4. Occupation: Currently selling diamonds and jewelry.
5. To do list: Oil changes, etc.
6. Family: At this time in my life this one basically consists of dating, communication with parents, siblings, etc.
7. Journal: Keep a personal daily log, entries on this website.

I find that on the days that I work on each of these categories I’m pretty happy. When I don’t, I’m not as happy. Not unhappy, but it just could have been better.

Procrastination only comes as you heed your fear of imperfection

Procrastinate: to defer action; to delay intentionally and habitually. So you’ve procrastinated and you’re far behind now. You’re so late that you wonder, “Is it still worth it to start now?” Procrastination seems to be the bane of our existence, the crux of our dismay. All but One have done it, and will continue to do it. So we’ve come to grips with it. We realize we need to avoid it, yet a hesitancy remains. You are hesitant to begin something that you should have started long ago, because you have a fear of performing less than satisfactorily. You think, “I’m late. By the time I finish, it will be way too late. And there is a chance that I will not be able to perform up to par.” Let me tell you friend, I know what you feel like. To me, procrastination comes with a deeper meaning. Fear of imperfection is the impetus for procrastination. Maybe you’ve never felt this way. Well, to a relative perfectionist as myself, my only fear is quite simply, not being perfect. Forward striving or hesitation will, respectively, make or break me. Pressing on will prove to be my liberation, indolence will prove to be my collapse. In other words, I will attain perfection or I will fail to attain perfection, due to simply not trying. The only thing stopping me from perfection is hesitation, procrastination, the crippling fear of not moving forward because I might fail, but in reality there is only one failure: not moving forward. Inaction is failure. In forward movement and attempted progression, we will arrive, at last, at perfection. So my friend, it’s not too late. It is still worth it.

(originally posted Thursday 11/8/07 1:05 AM)